I DO NOT OWN THE RIGHTS TO ANY MUSIC
How many opportunities have you run away from simply because of fear? Think about it, once we got older and out of our parent’s house we subtly started to fear all the things they did for us. Just thinking about calling the doctor’s office to make an appointment gives me the forehead sweats. That slight fear is still instilled in so many of us to this day.
My life consists of work, creative endeavors, calling family, and watching classic movies throughout the day. I had gone a few months without calling my god mom who is a person I talk to on the regular and vent to like she’s one of my friends. Noticing that it’s been a while since we talked I began to slightly fear the acknowledgment of me knowing we haven’t talked in a while. It’s like one of those situations when you and your girlfriend are mad at each other and you both want to talk to each other, but no one wants to pick up the phone to call the other.
Life had gotten a little hard for me, I had found my peace, but then my ego began to start bringing me so much turmoil. I knew my god mom would have the perfect answer for what I needed to do as well as me knowing the answer in the back of my head, but I was still scared to call her. Eventually one day I got tired of running and called her. The conversation was so refreshing. Instead of it feeling like an angry person talking to someone who was in the wrong she caught up with me as she naturally always does and we began to talk about many things. She confirmed what I knew she would tell me and even helped me in other areas, but what stopped this encounter from happening so much sooner and maybe could’ve saved me some hassle in the mental battles I faced was fear.
Life can be scary, but on the other side of that fear is the joy we all look for. Remember when we were kids and we were afraid of jumping in the pool, but soon after you finally jumped in and made it out of the water you couldn’t think of anything else to do but to keep jumping back into the water? Why? Because that initial fear you felt of what would happen once you got into the water is now gone and you can live in the joy of that moment.
I had a little girl tell me one day that there is no room for fun in a life full of fear. There isn’t enough room for your dreams in a mind full of doubt. Be intentional with your life and get the most out of it. I made an intentional decision when I got older that I wouldn’t live my life to where I would get to an old age and regret everything I did, I want to make sure that the stories I tell my kids and grandkids will last generations. I want to be that person my family can look to and be like “if he did it with everything he went through, then so can I.” Fear will not hold me back from what I desire because I know on the other side of that fear is the emotion I seek to have but never achieve from my lack of persistence.